Anne Marie 11/14/22 health

[Bhavani <http://www.gmail.com/~bhavaniowl>]

My colonoscopy was this past Thursday morning (although preparing for it
started on Tuesday) and I had a very bad reaction, but gratefully I was
able to return home following it.  Jeremy was with me, and like a
heaven-sent!!!  He was wonderful in every way.

Even on the way home, my body never stopped shivering, there were no
breaks.  Got home, had a ton of blankets on me, then started projectile
vomiting non-stop.  I thought it would never stop... and it only did after
reaching the hospital given quite a bit more time.  I also couldn't stop
coughing, there was alot of mucus coming up, and my breathing was labored.

Eventually Jeremy called 911 and the ambulance brought me to St. Joseph's
in Nashua.  We were there until almost midnight.  Also wasn't able, and
still not able, to eat since Tuesday.  I'm super weak, and for now my best
bet is to have saltine crackers and ginger ale.  It seems the only 2 things
that stay down.  Jeremy bought me a ton of food, but merely looking at each
item turns my stomach.  This whole experience was truly hell, and it made
my heart attack from 2016 seem like a piece o' cake.  I actually wasn't
sure if I'd pull through, and the all-consuming bodily weakness was a main
issue . I think I feel somewhat stronger today than yesterday so far, but
lots of unanswered questions at this point.

What I do know is that my heart's okay, most gratefully, but that I have
pneumonia.  I also have "hyponatremia"  - meaning not enough sodium in my
blood, diverticulosis, and internal hemorrhoids.  As for the colonoscopy
per se, they removed 2 polyps (I need to wait to hear for the pathology
results) and I also needed to schedule an apt with my pcp as a follow-up
which will be this Friday.  It was also stated that my gastroenterologist
recommends a repeat colonoscopy, but that it's not mandatory.  Even if it
were mandatory though, I'd definitely say no.  After his seeing all I had
gone through on Thursday, he fully got it when I said - "If they were to
tell me that I'll die if I don't have another colonoscopy, I know for sure
that I'd say - "Then let me die." I totally meant it, and I still do... and
this recovery process is very slow and draining. I've barely eaten anything
in 5 days, and I'm not the least bit hungry although of course I know too
that I have to keep trying, and I will.

And oh, 2 meds were prescribed for me too - one for the pneumonia and one
for nausea. I started taking those Friday, but am unsure at to how
effective they've been.

And that's the news for now.  I wanted either to write or call you before
now, but my energy has been so very low.  I'm truly very weak... like
holding on to walls, etc when I attempt to move.  I promise though that I
will call just as soon as I can, okay.  Please send metta and every form of
love imaginable, and I'll do the same for you and yours. It'll be really
good too though once we can talk.  I love you, my friend, and I so hope
that you're doing well in your corner of the world.  Big hugs.    ❤
oxoxoxoxo